Sunday, August 24, 2014

Round Robin Week 3

Cutting it close this week, but here's what I put together using Manu Scraps and Wendy R Designs' gorgeous kit Tuscan Summer-

Kit: Tuscan Summer Collab by Manu Scraps and Wendy R Designs
Font: Blackadder

Sunday, August 17, 2014

On Depression

This one is hard for me to write, hard for me to admit in a public forum. Not because of any stigma, but because I still believe it is a weakness on my part.
Sometimes I suffer from depression. Most days I fight with depression.
I thank God that even in the midst of it I am able to cling to hope. I may not believe in the moment that things will get better, but I am able to remember that I didn't always feel this way.
So I fight.
And my life is good, don't get me wrong. There is much joy in my life, but sometimes I forget. Sometimes I even wallow in the feelings of loneliness and the overall greyness that is life with depression.

And then I remember, and begin to fight anew. It's a bit like in CS Lewis' The Silver Chair when the evil queen throws the sweet smelling perfume on the fire and it makes the prince, the children, and Puddleglum drowsy. She begins to lull them into thinking that there is no outside world, this is all there ever is or will be. It's so easy to fall into that grey slumber. It takes an act of fierce will, and pain to break that spell and fight to remember the Truth. 

So I fight, and I remember
Don't tell me that it's not my fault, not a weakness. If that's true then I have no control over it, and no hope. Let me continue my fight, and just understand that even on good days in my fighting to get there I may have very little energy. Be patient with me and just BE with me. If I need help, I will ask, but I do best when I can just concentrate on the moment and NOT always be thinking about it. That's what was so hard about the Robin Williams suicide. It was nonstop coverage about depression, and giving in (I'm NOT judging him on that!) and that just made my struggle all the more...real. But his struggle is not my struggle, and I will continue to believe in the Truth and fight to remain in this world, the real world, the one worth fighting for.

I'm glad I belong to a Church that believes in the efficacy of prayer, and that our prayers are not limited by time and space. Our prayers now reach the ear of God before Robin Williams' death. There is power in that prayer.It cannot change what happened (a fixed point in time and space), but it can affect what were his final moments. I need to remember that, especially when I'm praying for the souls of those who I have lost.

Prayer, it's also a powerful took against the encroaching greyness. Especially when I am tempted to give in. THAT I know is from the evil one. How can I be so sure? Because ANYTHING that would separate me from the Sacraments is from Satan. Giving in to despair certainly does that.

St. Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle!

So, I fight, and I remember, and I pray.

And I thank God for my friends and family that 'get it' and stand with me and help me to create moments of joy in my life. As The Doctor so wisely said- 

The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don’t always soften the bad things, but vice versa the bad things don’t always spoil the good things or make them unimportant. 

I think I need to get that printed and posted somewhere close.

So, I fight, I remember, I pray, and I look for joy.

Thank you for adding to my joy, and for understanding that even though it doesn't take away the pain, it doesn't make it unimportant.

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Link drop!

I have gathered a number of exceptional links over the years on a variety of topics. I'm posting a number of them here mostly so I can find them again, and also to share!

This batch is all Catholic ones, I'll have a link drop of Crafty and Scrapping ones later on.

Ok, here we go! :)

Pillars of Catholicism this is a 13 part 'crash course' on Catholicism from the John Paul the Great Catholic University.

Word Among Us is the web home of the Word Among Us devotional. Lots of great Catholic articles to read even if you don't subscribe.

Word on Fire is the website of Fr. Barron, who brought us the book and then the DVD study series Catholicism. Great resource!

Catholic Home Study Service One of my favorite study sites. FREE books with study questions to answer on a variety of Catholic topics.

What Catholic and/or Bible Study resources do YOU use online?

Mother Daughter Tea

Back in May, Mom and I went to a lovely Mother Daughter Tea at the Little Traveler Shops in Geneva.

I made this page from Jilbert's Georgia Peach kit and love how the colors all flow together so nicely!

You can find this beautiful kit at theStudio here!

Studio Round Robin- week two!

I'm annoyed that I let myself miss week one this time around, but here's what I put together for week two, and as my contribution for Jilbert's CT-
Kit: Wild Thing Collab by Manu Scraps and Jilbert's Bits of Bytes
Available at theStudio here
Font: Euphorigenic

I had fun finding just the right photo to use with this kit, this is from our trip to Busch Gardens in Virginia in 2008 while we were still stationed at Ft. Bragg.